What a difference a day makes...

Today was an amazing day, simply because I had a wake up call(metaphorically speaking of course) about my life's purpose. I sat in on a short lecture about living our own lives, and it was like the speaker was talking to me and only me. It did nothing but serve as a confirmation of the thoughts I've been having the last few weeks and the frequency of the thoughts over the last few days especially. It's amazing the difference having clarity of purpose makes in terms of being strong and certain about where the future is going versus having doubt, uncertainty and no vision or dream. I was born to be a healer, and every experience up til now, including the loss of that vision have only served to allow it to be regained more strongly each time. I'm so greatful for the gift that I've received, the awesomeness of it humbles me to the point where nothing I can say would do it justice.

Oh yeah....

I didn't make time to get on here last night, or the day before that to do any blogging. Mostly because I hadn't done what I said I was going to do. I'm not going to be going into all the psycho-bable bs of how much I'm going to grow, and change during this process, NO!! I won't delude myself before any specific results are revealed, can be observed or measured. The way I feel about myself is a very subjective thing as far as how much I'm evolving and improving, shedding all the crap, self-imposed inadequecies and limitations, and can be somewhat distorted. However, my place is a little cleaner, smells a bit better, and it's only day 5. What the next 95 days have in store are up to me, and the only way for me to get the results I know I can achieve is to f*cking do what needs to be done, when it needs to be done, regardless of whether I want to or not, no excuses, no rationalizing not doing it. Period. Any one can have an average life, not many have an exceptional one, the one that is dreamt of, though it's doable. I'm going to live to my potential, and rise above the status quo, despite the expectations of society, real or imagined, conscious or unconscious, the opinions of others do not have to become our reality. Prioritizing, planning and then the discipline to follow through on that plan, and keep moving towards the outrageous goals, one step at a time, making stepping stones out of stumbling blocks is the path of and to greatness. It's easier to keep going if you never stop, and the key to being unstopable is not stopping. Yeah, living an extraordinary life is something that can be attained, but only by recognizing that, while simple it may be, is not easy. Nor is it do-able alone, as long as the right supportive people are kept close by, the nay sayers, ne'er do-wells, also rans, who bask in their past achievements are best left where they spend their days, in the past. This life is too short to have a lot to look back on having left undone. I have a purpose, a destiny, and I'm going to fullfill it.

Day 2 of my 100 day season co-creating

Well, after making the choice to do the 100 day season of cocreating my life, I've managed to do a couple loads of laundry. I also picked up a couple of bags of small items for garbage(gross I know, one of the many things I intend on creating is a clean apartment, so I can have visitors over at anytime) like empty egg cartons, kleenex boxes, etc before going to watch the super bowl...a fantastic game. I thought the Cardinals were robbed though, they deserved to win. Steelers got some really lucky breaks, and bizarre calls in their favor, but such is life.

With a couple of loads of laundry done, the dishwasher will be run, I believe I'll be starting the week on the right foot for a change. Yes, this cocreation and blog will be invaluable in helping me form the habbits that I've wanted to for a very long time, but never held myself accountable to doing. I'm off to fold the laundry that awaits me, finish off some dishes, take out the trash and be in bed at a reasonable hour.